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I am trying so hard to update in her regularly but life gets in the way sometimes. Over that last several days I have been somewhat in a daze. The intense head pain near my skull indention that surfaced at the start of this year is now back. I have been so tired like full on chronic fatigue tired; full body weakness, brain fog, joint and muscle pain the full on works. I got a little excited as I had made a doctors appointment but realized that it is still another week out. I haven't been to a true real doctor in over 4 and a half year since I lost my health insurance from a former employer. I was finally able to get on the market place insurance wish I am forever grateful for. It's been a long hard battle to get insurance and with the problems I am having I can only put of treatment for so long. I was always living in a constant fear that I was one illness to financial ruin. It also feels nice to know that if something should happen to my job for any reason I will still be covered.
This week has kind of been a blessing this will be explained in a moment. Due to this incessant pain in my skull and brain the pressure was getting unbearable and all I wanted to do was lay in bed with an icepack and eye cover and try to escape into sleep. I did not want to call out to work as we have very limited sick day credits to use and I only have 3 left until October so I am treating them like gold. However we have been doing a mass system update at work and Tuesday they decide to do mine 2 hours before I left work. I was able to clock out early while this was going on and I was so thankful as I was able to rest for a few hours before taking my son to work. I was told to let the update continue throughout the night and to check on my Mac the next morning. The update failed and it took all of Wednesday (which I was on standby for) so this was another day I was able to rest. Thursday was my day off and I received no real update from management until about 8:00pm that night the head manager of my office (a really cool guy to be honest) called and asked if I could come in around 10am on Friday to pick up a new computer. I live very close to work so I had no issue with that.
Friday morning rolls around I receive a call from my manager stating that he had an urgent matter come up and wouldn't be in the office until 12:00 and could I come in then to pickup my system. He stated he would pay me for my original 10:30 start time since this was his fault. Still feeling I'll at this point I was beyond grateful I went back to sleep for another hour or so. Then as I was starting to get ready he texted me and said don't come yet the system is still updating. I will text you when it is done. So now here again I am on standby. Cool so I take some more meds try and push more electrolytes and fluids and put on some New Age music for relaxing back ground noise and rest some more. I didn't get a text until 5:00pm to go to the office and pickup my system. My manager said since it was so late in the day to just go home and set up everything and let him know that it was working and then don't worry about today. He would pay me for the 8 hours of work I missed and just start on Saturday. I was so happy only due to the ability to be a way from a screen, phone and emails for so many days that didn't count against me. I don't know if it was divine intervention or what but there was no way I could have worked those days. I feel like my good Karma was cashed in and I am so very thankful.
Things have gotten so bad for me lately in the health department that I don't know what is really going on and it is scary like I will be able to work around the house for a few hours or go out to a meal with a friend and even to the grocery store and some back and have to lay down for several hours to recuperate. I hope I can start to find some answers soon or at the very least start the investigation.
XoXo
This week has kind of been a blessing this will be explained in a moment. Due to this incessant pain in my skull and brain the pressure was getting unbearable and all I wanted to do was lay in bed with an icepack and eye cover and try to escape into sleep. I did not want to call out to work as we have very limited sick day credits to use and I only have 3 left until October so I am treating them like gold. However we have been doing a mass system update at work and Tuesday they decide to do mine 2 hours before I left work. I was able to clock out early while this was going on and I was so thankful as I was able to rest for a few hours before taking my son to work. I was told to let the update continue throughout the night and to check on my Mac the next morning. The update failed and it took all of Wednesday (which I was on standby for) so this was another day I was able to rest. Thursday was my day off and I received no real update from management until about 8:00pm that night the head manager of my office (a really cool guy to be honest) called and asked if I could come in around 10am on Friday to pick up a new computer. I live very close to work so I had no issue with that.
Friday morning rolls around I receive a call from my manager stating that he had an urgent matter come up and wouldn't be in the office until 12:00 and could I come in then to pickup my system. He stated he would pay me for my original 10:30 start time since this was his fault. Still feeling I'll at this point I was beyond grateful I went back to sleep for another hour or so. Then as I was starting to get ready he texted me and said don't come yet the system is still updating. I will text you when it is done. So now here again I am on standby. Cool so I take some more meds try and push more electrolytes and fluids and put on some New Age music for relaxing back ground noise and rest some more. I didn't get a text until 5:00pm to go to the office and pickup my system. My manager said since it was so late in the day to just go home and set up everything and let him know that it was working and then don't worry about today. He would pay me for the 8 hours of work I missed and just start on Saturday. I was so happy only due to the ability to be a way from a screen, phone and emails for so many days that didn't count against me. I don't know if it was divine intervention or what but there was no way I could have worked those days. I feel like my good Karma was cashed in and I am so very thankful.
Things have gotten so bad for me lately in the health department that I don't know what is really going on and it is scary like I will be able to work around the house for a few hours or go out to a meal with a friend and even to the grocery store and some back and have to lay down for several hours to recuperate. I hope I can start to find some answers soon or at the very least start the investigation.
XoXo
