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It's been a long darn time since I have written in here. I don't even know if anyone reads this thing or not but it sure is therapeutic to get my thoughts out. So much has gone on since I last updated mostly in and out of crappy jobs that pay to little were not what they were advertised. Why do companies think it is okay to take advantage of people and treat them like garbage? I mean isn't there supposed to be a shortage of workers and yet they are still trying to pull this mess? I have decided that I will now only choose jobs that I am happy in and am treated well by the people I work for. I don't care what kind of job it is. I am giving up a work a home office position due to toxic clients and personnel. I do not regret my decision.
Since the start of the year, I have lost 4 people (3 due to cancer and the other due to heart issues) and it sucks so bad. Grief will eat you alive especially when you have no time to process one death before the next. This is another reason why I am looking into other options as far as work is concerned. I think it is more to that though I am really struggling to find balance in all aspects in my life. I feel like I am moving towards a new season in life and feel like so many of my thoughts and even interests are changing, sometimes I don't even really know who I am anymore.
I am going to spend the week looking for new employment and reconnecting with myself. I am not going to stress over much as I have really been struggling with triggers due to my complex PTSD, anxiety and depression. Some days are better than others, but I think I am starting from the bottom and staring my climb upward into a new positive direction. Thankfully I have the support of family and friends and that makes all the difference in the world.
Since the start of the year, I have lost 4 people (3 due to cancer and the other due to heart issues) and it sucks so bad. Grief will eat you alive especially when you have no time to process one death before the next. This is another reason why I am looking into other options as far as work is concerned. I think it is more to that though I am really struggling to find balance in all aspects in my life. I feel like I am moving towards a new season in life and feel like so many of my thoughts and even interests are changing, sometimes I don't even really know who I am anymore.
I am going to spend the week looking for new employment and reconnecting with myself. I am not going to stress over much as I have really been struggling with triggers due to my complex PTSD, anxiety and depression. Some days are better than others, but I think I am starting from the bottom and staring my climb upward into a new positive direction. Thankfully I have the support of family and friends and that makes all the difference in the world.
